when we decide

normally, i don't discuss politics, simply because i could not decide my stand, yet. And i have no one to talk to about politic, as my husband is a pro-PR, including his family, while my family, pro-BN through and through.

But the internet and TV in Malaysia just has less news to share, other than politic. So, i can't avoid listening or reading one of them. I'd call Malaysian politic as a circus show, not that i know how politic is in other country, but it does looks like a circus here. Stories are getting personal, as if we held a competition, which side can entertain and make the people laugh.

I am naive when it comes to politics, i hardly believe in any conspiracy, i believe what the tv news told me, and i trust leaders who i could see his sincerety (i don't read mind, i'm just being naive). I rarely read the internet's version of malaysian politic, occasionally, i'll visit Che Det (because he has broad ideas), or Anwar (because i love the way he write and speak, contents are not necessarily trusted, i just love his vocab).

Which side do i pick? or rather, which side should we be in? The one favored by TV news or the one favored by most bloggers? Which is trusted and which is not? Which will make Malaysia better and which will not? Do we simply be with the crowd, or do we try really hard not to be with the crowd, to choose a different 'alternative' ? Or, maybe we choose according to our race, or our religion, simple : stand behind a flag that carry your race/religion, because they'll fight for you. is it? will they? Or, could we be choosing a side because we just get bored with the other side?

a friend told me that news in tv are bias, and some of the newspapers too. I told him, so does the internet, with some papers too! I am naive, but not stupid, both side has their own influence over the media (the news, the internet, the papers), so they could bring each other down.

I'd like to see the politics to be about the people. Not just about how to subsidise them, or how to critic those giving subsidy. Nor its about how to 'help' the people or how to find conspiracy about helping the people. It's about the people. Help the people, but don't help too much, until we think we need to be helped in every ways. Help us be not a lazy community, not the other race's hater, stuff like that.

so, have i chosen a side? not yet, maybe not worth it anyway.