No wonderlah my friend pun tak suka you!

Cartoon from Cathy Thorne 2009

Honestly friends (i know readers here are only trusted friends, who say things honestly to me, without aku rasa sakit hati), am i always flirting with man?


I'm married, and I work with man. There's no woman in the compound that I work, except for a clerk and a janitor. Everyday, I am surrounded by man.


As a woman, I'm always in need of friends. So, I make friends with man, they're all that I got here, and what's wrong with that? They're easy to talk with, straight forward, no string attach (i.e takdelah lunch kena pegi dgn kawan tu je, kalau tak ajak gi lunch maka merajuk, no such thing), and they're simple, nobody cares if I do not put on any lipstick for the whole of Jun and July.


I kinda like that.


Just, when one or two of them thought that my kindness means I'm interested in them, I felt wrong. Something must be wrong.

See, I'm not perasan when I said somebody is interested, i received a wrapped box yesterday, with singing hari raya card, from anonymous. Nasib baik one of the officemate told me who put it there.

So I flashback. No wonder he always seemed tersipu2 when he met me, and akan merajuk bila aku tak sembang dengan dia. I'm not a nice girl, so pedulik hapa aku orang merajuk, takde kaitan. Not my friend, not my family.

But when I received that box, I called Shahrun, told him, he laugh and said amik jelah.

Cool, he knows me.


I told my officemate tadi, I am not interested in anyone, and insya Allah setakat ni (god forbid), I am not interested in office flirting or any flirting. I may seem not having a romantic relationship with Shahrun, but we have no intention in listening to any judgement about our relationship (kecuali lah the trusted ones).

But I still need to know if I am :

1. Always talking in a gedik way ? As if I'm flirting?
2. Too mesra, i make people around me uncomfortable and leads to perasan?

3. Doing things that boleh menyebabkan fitnah?

Am I? And is this harassment?