being older

inspired from Hasna's.

1. I have gave up a lot of dreams, among them are living overseas. Yup, aku rasa dah invalid, for my other half is not sharing the same dream. As for now, dream aku cumalah berharap his dream is not to grow old in Kelantan.

2. Being older, i realise i haven't got any close friend. Ada, but not as close as before. None are geographically close, so aku memang hopeless kalau tak dekat. In the office are all staffs, which means there's always limit.

3. Bye-bye to things that will melt my heart. Not because I don't love my other half, tapi because his not that kind. Putting hope untuk husband2 yg tak akan romantis adalah a waste of time. U might as well accept the fact and move on. After all, it is life.

4. Things i thought of everyday are just work and kids. Nothing fancy.

5. I realize that it is of no point arguing with those who won't change their mind. Dulu, aku akan argue jugak. But now, dah mellow. Malas dah.

6. I have already considering of not including slimming in my wishlist. No point when i have not work hard enough to slim down. Why i'm not working hard enough? Tah.

7. I have accepted a lot of things yg i wouldn't gave up 5 years back. Opinions yg dulu2 aku mesti tak accept, i do now - cth : jgn bawa anak pi mana2, susah, sbb depa buas. Well i kind of accept that now. Maybe sbb MIL duk ulang beribu kali.

8. Staying home is a bless. Lazying on the couch & watching tv. I use to not know whats on tv, tapi maybe sbb dulu2 we cant afford astro & parents takut anak2 asyik mengadap tv. And dulu, going out adalah best, be it to dine, shop, or just looking around taman-taman.

9. I do not want new friends. Rakan2 baru hanyalah those i met in work. And i dont consider them as friend.

10. My sleeping time is earlier. No more staying up late, except when my boss is demanding things.

Agak pathethic pulak aku when i'm older.

Or maybe happiness are defined differently, as we grow.