out of nowhere

I think love is a poison. A slow reacting one. Watched CSI (NY) over the weekend, on one sad episode of a beautiful young lady with cancer, being murdered for her appartment. She barely has 3-4 more month to live due to the cancer, yet she's being poisoned, slowly by a good neighbor, with arsenic. In small amount, arsenic was being added to her organic tea-bags, by the killer for almost 5 years. It took the arsenic 5 years to kill her (note : i've done no scientific research, this is according to those CSI guys in the series).

But love, love take more than that, the slowest reacting poison. Like any other poison, you'll feel affecting you more and more everyday. Love kills. And that's why no homo-sapiens are immortal; admit it or not, we're all in love, and we're all being murdered by love. Relate it with one of the Muslim's believe that good guys will always die first. Well, good guys are always loving guys. The more you're involved with love, the faster it kills you. It is an analogy to the arsenic, put more arsenic in your tea-bag, you'll die faster.

Being a logical person, a logical insight will always came pass me.

Love kills
but human must love
so to be on the safe side;
give the least of your love, and request the very least of love from others.
secret ingredient of long life...

Can we not pretend that we need lots of love? Or can we actually live longer with only a bit of love? As love is a poison, it is our heart's food. You'll die faster without love, than with love. Poison kills, but food keeps you alive, a week without food will turn a human to corpse.

Out of nowhere i feel like writing about this; whether love a weapon that kills you or makes you alive? The question pops up in mind, as i am very much hoping to be alive, and to live my life. I feel like i am dying, everyday, so to love or not to love?

An anniversary to remember.

Happy 3rd anniversary. I wed him last 3 years, on 16th January 2004.
I am still married to him and am happy about it.

Wrote something for him, but on second thought i keep that with me instead.
Anyway, by any case hubby dear is reading this, this is what i supposed to slip in to your organizer on our anniversary :

" Most people say, the best thing in the world is love. Well i agreed and couldn't disagree on that. Love has actually live up the world, give sanity and empathy to us. Imagine the world without love.. sigh. I have lived 3 years with you, and truly, it has been an inspiring one; and exciting too. I can not imagine a happier life with anyone else. Your love has put me in the must suitable place i should be; with you. I have learned a lot through the 3 years and I am looking forward for the upcoming years.

Sorry that this is all I have for you during our 3rd anniversary, believe me i would do much. But i thought letting out and making you know how much you mean to me would be the best thing to do. However uninterested you get to read this, i have to let you know that you really mean a lot to me. I need you , and i need your love.

We have went through our good and bad days, and I have loved you long enough to know that you'll never reveal how much you love me. No romantic dinner, birthday surprises, sweet words would ever come from you. But the way you have take care of us, reminds me that not everyone is a hopeless romantic guy. This is just your way of telling me that you love me. And for me, this is true love. I am thankful that Allah has grant me quite a husband.

Love. "