always a First Timer

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I've had a contraction last night. It was a continous pain for about 15 minutes, and repeats from 6:45 pm up to 8:45 pm. But after that I am all good, and even can clean all the dirty dishes hubby and BIL left.

Hubby was relieved upon hearing my statement of : " i think this is a fake contraction, i am ok now", to the extend that he take a "short" nap from 8:45pm till morning. He's been busy unpacking and packing my hospital bag (which i have already prepared beforehand), from one bag to the other. And worst, he's been calling around. Called his mother to ask about my pain, called his auntie to request for help in case of anything since she's the only relative living here in Penang, and even request me to call my mom.


MIL called a few times, asking me to leave the babies at the baby sitter last night and straight go to the hospital. I am tempted with that suggestion, but one second after the call terminates, my mom called (she has always sense anything upon me !). Mak asked on how am i doing (guess when ? just after the maghrib azan sounded). Relieved, i told her that i was in pain, but i do not know whether this is another practicing session by my son and my body or a real one. She calmly replied ,


"U have been tru this twice before, u should know. Let's not be panic, wait for a moment if still occurs, u have ur OB's num, refer to her".


My mom is superb ! She has made me relax and true enough, it is a fake contraction. But this is a sign that the real event will come soon. And a good practice for all of us to not be panic.


Hubby and me has been panic. So does MIL. But i guess that some people are just always a first timer. We can't help but be panic. This is going to be our third baby, but we still act as though we have never been tru all these. Some of us are just too cautious, and never take things for granted.


And Allah has always be fair, He created somebody like Mak, so that we can stand on the ground and be less panic.


Afterall, there's nothing wrong of being a first timer, always. It makes me feel fresh.

relieve of the long awaits

the letter.

it's a relieve now that we have got our letters for the realignment of the company. It is not surprising for me, i have already predicted what will be in my letter and i have strong feeling i will be right.

And yes i am right.

I am staying in the same old unit, with only a little hope that tiny changes will happen. Instead of dividing us into geographical area, we are assigned to fuctional post. And that doesn't matter much, i'll be doing the same ol' job. same ol' job. And that has been my complaints tru out the year.

Do i not have the guts to move out from my comfortable zone?
Do i freak out to meet the real world?
Do i give excuses not to move out?
Why do i gave excuses to my plan of moving out?

stay focus. I have at least 2 month of leave to ponder this out. Hopefully i'll get my answers.

The big belly

Signs are appearing. OB keep saying the head is engaged. And my weight is decreasing a kilo. Brixton Hicks happens night and day. But i am still with my big belly. I understand that these are all on His's hand. The time will come, when it supposed to come.

I am just too anxious. And scared too. Pray for me. May Allah bless the baby and me.

Amen

no particular order

Of naming him

He's a him. And as excited as we could get, we should name him, or at least think of list of preferred names for him. We shall name him with a meaningful name, with arabic meaning, or at least with good meaning, in full hope that he would be a good person as his name indicates. I have told dear hubby to think of names, since he has not give ideas on naming any of our babies before. I want him to name this one.

I like nice name, creative name. Thus, hopefully hubby would find a name that will fit my criteria, nice and creative. I will them him that.
On second thought, well, don't tell him anything. Let him decide. Afterall, this is a father-son thing. Let him do his first father-son task.

Name the son, father !

Post-natal blues

I am eyeing on a highly rated post natal set; from Nona Roguy. In fact, i have registered myself as member for the discount price. The offset is; MAHAL. It is about RM300 per set, which exclude the tummy binder (bekung or barut) - and by the way i do not need another bekung as i have already owned 2 set of it.



It is an excellent product except for the price, and that's what i gathered from my verbal survey with makciks at the office and from the internet. Especially it's Herbanika Ointment, and Phytonatal Pill.



Hubby do not approve. "Mahal sangat" he said.



So, i've look for alternatives :

1. Amway THS - complete with pilis, tepel and all, plus the tummy binder. Also highly rated on the internet, but still price around RM200++. Don't know if hubby would agree.


2. HPA - i am totally not into this product, not a complete set. But price wise, hubby will say yes.


3. Air Mancur (my old post natal set) - hubby has suggested me to use this one back. It's cheap, but not quite complete. The pills and pilis/tepel are always finish before i even reach 30 days of 'pantang'.

I have actually set my mind on purchasing nona roguy set. Not because of the popularity and good raport, because somehow i believe that the herbal substance of its medicine may gain me energy during post natal and even after that. See, i am a tired person, and i need help (nyeh nyeh.. actually i am just set to buy that, nothing can stop me, only hubby).

I'll tell hubby i need this. And i'll use my money, not to worry. One choice made.

on growing up

we are like plants, we grow up.



But unlike plants, we grow up physically, emotionally and well i'd say "kematangan akal".

As for me, i do realize (especially emotionally), that i grew up, judging by my way of taking issues and problems compared to when i was 17 or even 22. We all do realize this, and somehow, we manage to develop ourself.



Some people just don't. Some are just emotionally unstable, and these types are hard to be understand. It is not their all their fault though. But these people are just hard to fit in the real world. I have one staff, who is very much emotionally unstable. See, all my staff are men, and on first thought, i presume all of them are less emotional than us woman. That would help a lot. But this guy is the only one with 'woman' problem sticking on him. I am not back stabbing him, but it is the truth.



Colleagues of him are trying hard to understand him, but none did. Words from his mouth are hurtful, and discouraging. It is not of positive values that should be in the office of 6 person. At last everyone accept him as he is, and bear all the consequences of being his colleagues.



I'd say that is one type of person who has not grow up emotionally. He is still a baby. Who needs lots of attentions and demand lots of unnecessaries. Pity him. But sorry, i have no choice, we'll be transferring him out from the unit, as he's making the office's environment unhealthy.



At least i learned something tru this. No matter how intelligent you are, you need to keep up with the 'people issues', which is by far, the most sensitive problem i've had face.



And i've learned how to deal with older people. I'm working with people of age (average) 40 and above. I am still learning, no doubt, but it has been a difficult journey.

Enuff on that. Remember, smaller people talks about other people!!

of segmenting people

during my company's new software/system briefing, we were being taught on how segmentization is done. Basically, the speaker segmentize the class by age, then by units, then by physical appearances and such.

I learned that segmentization is important for analysis. As for business, segmentize ur customer, and u'll be able to customize service/products to them according to their needs and preferences.

A few days back in a herb & traditional medication shop somewhere in BJ(went there to find a good post natal set, will blog bout that later), i saw a framed quotation by someone (i forgot who he is),

Big people talks about IDEAS
Small people talks about THINGS
Smaller people talks about OTHER PEOPLE

And well, that is a good segmentization, and quite true.

I guess i have always been a smaller people. Nothing wrong about that (except when u start to bad-mouthed people behind them), i talked about other people. How great they are or how bad they are, and use it as my guidance on making decisions or taking actions.

And that is why I am still a small person (err not physically though). I rarely talks about things. Which is a good topic. I have never thought of talking about how an engine in a car works (my boss had a session of pep talk on that, he's not as small as me, and that is why he is my boss).

In fact when we start talking about things or ideas rather than other people, we are thinking of things and ideas rather than other people.

Isn't that productive and stimulate creativity? and cool.

Still, we are never a big people. We are human, and human has emotional needs. One of it is to has emotionally attached to other people. Which lastly referred to thoughts and talks of other people. So, what the heck, i'll be a bigger person that i am before, just by adding another good element in my thoughts and talk.

Lets start with things, before it develop to ideas. Lets.

in the midst of third trimester

Pic of baby in 3rd trimester, taken from

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the third trimester has always been a busy time for me. And i have always pray for pre-dated delivery rather than waiting for the expected due date.

doctor asked me to perform some exercise, as i've been complaining of back pain, and all other pain. hopefully those exercises will help me deliver quickly.

oh, i met the maid agent just now. Well, i found out that she's doing the business from home, not quite an agent, not a registered one. But, since we've made a deal, and i saw all the documents are in place and as long as she gave me a good deal with a good maid, i'm not cancelling anything just yet. The meeting lasted with her giving me 3 biodata of maid for me to choose.

Sigh.

Choosing is just not my thing. I doubt my decision making ability as my decision has always been well... wrong. I may chose right, but that would only happen after first decision has been made and damage has been done. Hmmpphh.. have i gave up ? nope. And i have no option to give up too. I must choose and decide. I need a straight and calm mind, with of course His help, Allah SWT.

and the third trimester symptom of mine come. Dizzi and sleepy. so , i got to go.

Bye. and wish me luck

karma?

do i believe in karma?

in a way, yes. But i believe that everything (including so-called karma) is being arranged by Allah, and only Him.

Watched a sad weekend drama just now, briefly an interesting story for mother's day mode, and has successfully made me stick to the TV for almost 2 hours. But the most important point is that this drama reveals scene that i have never watch from any other drama before.

It was about a mother who's being treated badly by his own son, after he married a rich and pretty lady. Daughter-in-law hates the old lady, and has always find ways to influence her hubby to hate his mother too. It was sad and cruel how they both treat her. But later in the scene, while the poor mother cried and pray, flashback bring us another scene while the poor mother was young. She had a sick and paralyse hubby, and she treated him badly.

Bad enuff that i'd say she deserve bad treatment from her children.

That is karma, at least for me.

arrgghh.. got to go, i'll update later!