Alfatihah

Forgive me.

I write when I'm not in my normal happy mode.

My uncle pass away, just now. We called him Mamak Din. See, we come from a strong suku sakat Mandailing, and uncles on mothers sides are called mamak. His name was Abdullah bin Mohd Noor, but he was better known as Nordin. Hence the name, Mamak Din.

He was a good man. He is. My mom's eldest brother. A man who loved his family dearly, and a good friend of my father.

I cant sleep tonite. This again, is a reminder from Him, that death is certain, always is. Life and what we perceive as heaven on this earth, is temporary.

We human, at least most of us, need to be reminded over and over that this beautiful life we live is temporary. That we have an eternity world waiting for us, that death, means the end of this temporary life.

So we cud refrain, from hatred, anger, ungrateful and  wasting - time, food, energy, money. So we cud appreciate what has been written for us, as He knows best. And ultimately, so we understand that Allah, always knows best, always love us.

We will die. We all will, just a matter of time.

Are we ready to end this temporary life?

AlFatihah to Mamak Din, may he be bless by Allah.

Sudah terlewatkah?

1. I've been confused. The internet has been mean. See I cant always go to majlis ilmu, as Armin needs me, and so are his siblings. So, I seek the youtube of ustaz's ceramah.
But, recently lots of arguments about the validity of hadith read and explained by some ustaz. And it has made me confuse, to whom to refer?

2. But most ustaz haa agreed that a lot of sign has been revealed, telling us this is akhir zaman. And this is scary.

3. Am i ready? Orang offer makan free pun kadang2 bukak puasa sunat, can I survive the hunger and thirst in Dajjal times? Will we be there to witness the end of the world? Or our death is already calling?

4. I'm scared. But I know I'm weak. We're the generation of materials, and we're lack inside. We quarrel over political parties like small kids, calling people macai and ulama sesat, how cud we tell the strength of our heart and our mind?
We dont care about pregnant ladies Without seats in LRT, and we claimed to have big hearts?

5. Small things people, small things. While our frens are suffering from water lacking in Selangor, in Penang we waste them like its ours. And we're tough inside, is it?

I hope we're given His mercy, and we need a lot of them. Pray for us and definately our children.

I hope it is not too late.

Kaknam lagi didapur.

This time a failure epic.

Attempt to menggulai ikan masin dgn terung failed big time.

The look is good, rupanya org tak buat gulai ikan terubuk masin.

The correct ikan shud be ikan talang masin.

Haha, bedal je lah. Next time bersedialah ikan talang

Kaknam didapur

First time memproses ketam sendiri, kecoh!

This is ketam batu, brought alive from Sabah. Mati dlm peti ais.

Nak proses siap youtube, call mak, gelabah takut masih hidup, uiii mencabar sungguhhh

Nak masak kacang je.. garlic, onion, ginger and lemongrass kalau ada. Blend. Add red chillies or dried chillies. Stir fry, add in tamarind juice. Salt, sugar to taste. Kemudian masukkan mr crab kita.

The crab itself is so yummy, kuah cincai pun menjilat jari.

Hehe.

Dua dunia kita berbeda

1. Ammar is tan, obviously. Hitam legam actually.
While Armin is fairly fair. Not that fair, but the fairest among all four of them.

2. Ammar sempoi. He didnt like to dress up, sikat pun taknak. If we didnt force him to change whenever we are about to go to kenduri, Ammar will wear what u'll see as baju tidoq.
Armin shows some hint of mat smart. He loves to see himself in the mirror, and he smile while selfie-ing with me. He likes sunshade, and how he looks after putting it on. Too soon to judge maybe, but dulu2 Ammar tak mcm ni

3. Armin is a clingy baby. He cant lose sight on me. Nangeh mcm kena dera.
Ammar, when he's around that age, likes his freedom, lari, punggah mainan, punggah kain baju, kalau boleh nak pusing satu flat tu dulu.

Love them both, regardless

Tua dah ka?

I frequently feel ache on my back, shoulder and hip. Sekali sapu and mopping session seminggu sakit.

What la?

Makcik2 dah gaya.

Tapi, cover babe. If u ask if its tiring without maid; I'd say I'm ok.

Yelah, i do what i think i can handle. By 9pm, if i havent clean the dishes, and sweep the floor, maknanya I'll only clean the dishes. Sapu hari lain.

And i havent forget how tiring it was with maid. Body ache is forgiven, and will heal.

Makan jamu la jom. Dak pun shaklee ka apa ka. Kot2 makan mau kurus jugak kannnnnn

Keras tangan

We're not good in house decorating.
Cleaning and tidying up pun once a week, most of the time the kids and their frens will make this house their favourite indoor spot.

Say no more about rumah kemas.

But I'm happy with that.

Ada je times when we went to neighbors or frens houses, and we get inspired.

And these are the result recently, kids room. The boys and girls.

Lets see sampai bila bertahan ��