Rindulah

Manusia dua orang ni takde kat rumah. Kena tinggai kat Kelantan sat, until Friday.

Tinggal Ilhan sorang, sekolah. Tu pun muka dah muncung kena sekolah.

Dan mulalah episod rindu-merindu bila takde depan mata.

1st 2012 update?

Have been busy, with hmmhh.. duniawi, don't ask.

I was thinking of how bad and naughty am I when I was 8-6 years old ? Adakah aku memang menyeksa mak & ayah time tu dengan pelbagai aksi & rengekan eh?

Because my kids are sooooo err, i'd say banyak ragam these days. And I thought it must be payback time for me or, better still for my husband. Aku lebih cenderung say this is due to him. Tapi kalau due to him, apsal dia tak banyak rintangan pun most of the time?

Apsal masa dia tengah buat keje malam-malam takde sapa nak kacau laptop dia, even his tempting Iphone?
Apsal time dia makan takde orang nak pi kencing ke berak ke?

So it must not be him. Maybe he's that naughty, tapi mak dia kan ala-ala sopan, so maybe she accept those without a sigh. Jadi tak karma la kat husband aku. Lucky him.

Aku la kan?

Mathematically aku la tu.

I do remember back then, aku hanyalah seorang pembaca buku cerita, starting for 6 years old. I even read Talkin Untuk Umno when I'm 7. Takdelah buas sangat kot? Takkanlah pembaca buku cerita membuas tiba-tiba kan?

Ye, aku mengeluh, maybe dah kurang pahala. But u must know how I want my child to behave. Maybe salah aku jugak, I'm not that behave.

Err, memang salah aku kan?

Loving all of u no matter what. Forgive me for being such a lunatic mom.

Muda sebelum tua

I was reading Wardina's experience sharing, to realize that Ilhan belum ditrain utk solat 5 waktu.

And she's already 7 going 8 years.

Alamak..

She knows how to solat, cuma salah aku tak really push her to perform them 5 times a day.

Good thing bila Ilhan balik kampung cuti sekolah haritu, dan kena solat dgn opah & atuk. So bila balik Penang, she has already following a routine. Cuma subuh mmg susah.

Zohor, during school days adalah tertinggal terus, sbb school starts at 1PM and there's no surau at her school (read : sjkc) . I'm looking forward nak jumpa ustazah dia to find ways utk solat time recess, 3PM.

Asar, will be done at nursery - around 640PM, after school, lambat sikit tapi janji dia solat. Dah pesan pun kat pengetua nursery to make sure dia solat right after school.

Maghrib & isya will be done together, so far so good.

And, mengikut nasihat Wardina; each time after solat, I will whisper prayers to Allah -

"Ya Allah, jadikanlah Ilhan Yasmin hambaMu yg sentiasa tekun mengerjakan solat 5 waktu"

Making sure she listens, so she understands.

And seriously Ya Allah, perkenankanlah doa ku. Dan istiqamahkanlah usaha kami.

Bantuan diperlukan segera!

From Google

U people need to help me.

Serious.

Aku rasa huduh sangat la ni. Aishh, dengan debabnya, dengan muka sepinggan, malas nak belit tudung, duk pakai tudung express (pastu herot pulak tu).

Lagi-lagi bila dah tembam ni, baju cantik disarung mesti jadi tak elok dah. Oih serius nih. Buat perabih duit pi beli baju cun-cun.

Make up? nak belit tudung pun aku malas, nak pandang make up lagi lah.

Ye ye, aku ada masalah malas.

Tapi, cuba tolong jugak, how to be pretty, effortlessly?

Oh ye, tak gamak aku nak letak muka aku sekarang utk tatapan ramai. Pilih punya pilih, memang semua huduh.

** Dengan penuh harapan ada yg prihatin, dan membaca.

I need food (G5P3A1)

And am taking them. Cuma now food travels from mouth to throat to tummy without the usual tolls, untuk menikmati rasa.

I tought these will help, tapi serupa je. Cravings ada tapi nikmat tiada.

All food tasted blagghh, tapi aku still menyumbat.

Anyhow, thank this to the new someone inside. ;)

being older

inspired from Hasna's.

1. I have gave up a lot of dreams, among them are living overseas. Yup, aku rasa dah invalid, for my other half is not sharing the same dream. As for now, dream aku cumalah berharap his dream is not to grow old in Kelantan.

2. Being older, i realise i haven't got any close friend. Ada, but not as close as before. None are geographically close, so aku memang hopeless kalau tak dekat. In the office are all staffs, which means there's always limit.

3. Bye-bye to things that will melt my heart. Not because I don't love my other half, tapi because his not that kind. Putting hope untuk husband2 yg tak akan romantis adalah a waste of time. U might as well accept the fact and move on. After all, it is life.

4. Things i thought of everyday are just work and kids. Nothing fancy.

5. I realize that it is of no point arguing with those who won't change their mind. Dulu, aku akan argue jugak. But now, dah mellow. Malas dah.

6. I have already considering of not including slimming in my wishlist. No point when i have not work hard enough to slim down. Why i'm not working hard enough? Tah.

7. I have accepted a lot of things yg i wouldn't gave up 5 years back. Opinions yg dulu2 aku mesti tak accept, i do now - cth : jgn bawa anak pi mana2, susah, sbb depa buas. Well i kind of accept that now. Maybe sbb MIL duk ulang beribu kali.

8. Staying home is a bless. Lazying on the couch & watching tv. I use to not know whats on tv, tapi maybe sbb dulu2 we cant afford astro & parents takut anak2 asyik mengadap tv. And dulu, going out adalah best, be it to dine, shop, or just looking around taman-taman.

9. I do not want new friends. Rakan2 baru hanyalah those i met in work. And i dont consider them as friend.

10. My sleeping time is earlier. No more staying up late, except when my boss is demanding things.

Agak pathethic pulak aku when i'm older.

Or maybe happiness are defined differently, as we grow.

Hoping for sunshine

The weather here in Penang is not so clear, almost everyday hujan resulting in bertimbun baju tak basuh.

Err kalau clear weather pun, at times timbun jugak kan?? ;)

Kat rumah pun agak gloomy, kakak is sent to Langkap. Atuk is not so happy with her progress with iqra' , saying sepatutnya darjah satu dah naik quran.

Betul jugak, tak set target utk dia, mmg lambat lah. So atuk bawa balik kampung, to mengaji plus mandarin tuition.

Kakak tak gloomy lah, since :

1. Dah dpt jalan ke langkawi
2. Dpt birthday bash di hotel, ibu pun tak penah
3. Present byk, including a set of barbie stationary from her opah teh.
4. Beside Adam, she's the center of evrything, walapun kadang2 kena cepuk dgn opah

So, tinggal both the youngest kat rumah haruslah aktiviti limited sikit. Tak ada ketua clan.

Still, look what happens in the house. !!