of being chicken

Ilhan yasmin is scared to almost anything.

Cockroaches, lizards, frogs, toads and those normally avoided harmless animals/insects are of course in her list.

But - ants, fly, butterfly (the non-colourful one, eh ke nama dia moth?), dragonfly - these are beautiful insects (ok lah, most of them are). Girls love them, but not ilhan.
Weird eh?

When we're going to the waterfall or pool, ilhan scream the loudest. "yeay!!".

But when we reach there, and she stick her feet into the stream, she'll cry and beg to be carried out from the water. Of course the loudest cry.

It's easy to prevent her from doing something, just say "ada bangla kat situ", she'll freak out.

She'll cry when i told her that her teacher will scold her for not doing homework, or for letting Masyitah koyak her school books.

Ah! the cry. Ilhan's cry is not Masyitah's type of cry. Masyitah's will be a cry to attract attention. While Ilhan's; an honest scared cry. You can actually listen and differentiate. Face expression does help too.

Ilhan, she can't act. She has an honest expression, represent her current feeling, regardless of the surrounding. She'll hide behind Masyitah, with bloodless face when she stumble upon Atuk Gemuk (my uncle, ilhan takut gila).

Masyitah on the other hand, acted a lot. If she falls, and say she's hurt, i don't know whether she really fall or she purposely fall and act that her legs hurt (so that i'll take away my attention from Ammar).

Oh, aku lari topik..

ilhan is happy, look at her smile.

ok, now she's scared.

Sometimes, pity her, she did not enjoy things as she's scared of almost everything. She would not take her books, unless i switch on her room's light, in our small built apartment. One light from the living room will shine her room.

She's not chicken, but I suspect friends might call her. But Ilhan, be yourself. Scared is your trait, be it. It might not be good, but don't force unless u yourself want to be brave.

Afterall, we need to be afraid. At least to the Almighty. (which is why Ilhan always say her prayer before sleep, alhamdulillah).