Not so bright morning

Nampaknya kejadian amuk ditingkat 11 semakin menjadi-jadi.
Pengamuk, kakngah, memastikan setiap pagi tidak aman, dan penuh drama.

Kakngah yg posing lepas dah siap nak pi sekolah.
(p/s : my 'wallpaper' - very the nice kan? haihh..

Pagi ini, beliau mengamuk seperti biasa, questioning whether ibu mandikan dia or just basuh badan dia.
and then, the drama goes on.
Air mesti panas, air sejuk menyebabkan kakngah terketar2, eleh.
Baju sekolah mesti dah iron, dan kakngah cuma nak duduk saja, ibu tolong sarungkan semua. Demanding.

Jika ayah check beg kakngah seperti pagi ini, dan of course akan jumpa byk benda pelik, kakngah akan terasa hati.
Barang2 yg dijumpai dalam beg :

1. Duit syiling byk, duit ayah.
2. Sampah2 dari beg kakak
3. Buku2 coloring yg dia dah koyak2
4. Cotton buds, byk plak tu
5. Hair clips kakak
6. Sweets, lots of them
7. Tudung ibu
8. Underwear dia, super banyak (patut la sampai ada hari yang takde underwear)

At times, opah pernah jumpa cdma phone opah dalam beg sekolah kakngah.
setelah ayah buang semua benda2 tu, kakngah merajuk. Mostly, about the sweets. She's super sensitive when it comes to food, terutama sekali sweets.
Katanya

" siapa suruh ayah buat cekelat kangah, cikgu yg bagi..-sedu sedan- kesian kakngah..... -sedu sedan- apa maknanya ayah amik cekelat kangah..."

hoh

dan sekarang kak ngah request nak menu biasa dia dipagi hari, bekalan kesekolah - nasi lemak dengan udang & telur rebus, campur kuah kuning.

No wonder nak angkatt dia super berat.

Jerai outing

Yeay nak sampai peak!

Weekend, rather than cleaning up the mess we left at home, after 2 weeks of frequent travel, we head to Gunung Jerai.

This time around, bukan hiking, hanya utk menghiburkan hati anak2, yg ditinggalkan merata2 quite long. Sian depa.
We stayed at jerai regency resort, at the mount's peak. Best, sbb sejuk.. Kakngah yg tido from the entrance until we reach peak (boleh naik kereta ya), thought its cameron highland, hehe.

Kan banyak kabus

went there with few other families, so mereka rajin masak & siap bawa portable gas cooker. Dinner & breakfast is free. I loikeee..

the room we stayed has view of part of kedah & at some bright hours, boleh nampak langkawi, cool. Room is nice, takde aircond sbb tak payah. The resort plant pretty flowers, which my 2 daughters love so much, sampai baring2 ambil gambar.

And they do have a hall for sports - badminton, ping pong, pool, dart, basketball & they have bicycles for rent too. We only did played ping pong sebanyak 3 match, and aku kalah semua.. Hoh.

view from balcony, sangat cantik

Nice place to stay, just tak sempat makan kat sana so, cant review on that.

nice room eh?

Tapi turun dari Jerai, kami ke Radix Fried Chicken, sg petani for lunch. Ayam yg sedap, and aku rasa kurang lemak sket compared to KFC. Maybe sbb ayam dia organic.

And, we're heading back to penang, balik kemas rumah!

From Tapah with love

The act of making others happy is far more difficult than the opposite.
At least for me.

So, if i do say nice thing to anyone it takes a lot more energy.
Please appreciate it.

Full stop.

as i was passing by

huh, dah bersawang.

Anyway, there's a lot of happenings, which i thought has less significant to own a whole post here (read : sebab dah past tense yg sangat panjang.. plus i am super lemau and malas to update), for instance :

1. We went crazy deciding whether to move or not (tak abis2 kan? that's the art in our relationship, no case will be close, *grinnnn..*)
2. The Thomas Cup has made us half sakit jantung, screaming and what's not in the house.
3. I've finished reading 2 books, and am currently reading 1:
1. The Concubine of Shanghai by Hong Ying

• Read this during my whole trip in Borneo. The book was given free by the hotel owner when we stayed in Brunei (rugi, tak boleh claim tax).
• A true story of a woman named Cassia, who lived as concubine in Shanghai.
2. Natrah - Cinta, Rusuhan, Air Mata  by Fatini Yaacob

• Who doesn't remember Natrah @ Maria Huberdina Hertorgh @ Bertha Hertogh ? Read this book, strongly recommended.
• As the writer said in her preface - this story is about Natrah, and beyond. U should be surprise of the beyond (ke aku je?)
4. We went to several interesting places :
• Lost World of Tambun
• err.. balik kelantan, boleh?
5. Watched good and not so good movies :
• Shrek in 3D - cool!
• Ironman II - cool too, at least to my kids.
• Clash of the titans
• Robin Hood

And, I'll be updating the borneo trip soon.

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How soon you say? hehe.. Very soon.

The more the merrier?

The talks around the office lately has been about getting another wife. It's a fun topic to be discussed for all my staff, they're all man and mostly are over 40.

Some seemed serious about involving in polygamy, some just does the lip service.

And none has the courtesy of filtering any words, maybe I've been here too long, they just don't bother or forget that I'm a woman.

Aaaanyway, I do have some insight. Polygamy is the right way to share love, provided those who shares really love each other and really do understand the concept of sharing.

I don't . So to the other half - don't try.

And I've heard of a story, a real story (yeaaahh jom gossip), about a colleague's attempt to polygamy.

It goes like this, he's about my age, married to a fine woman, about my age too. They've been married for about 6-7 years, yet they haven't got any child yet.

It has always been about babies.

He wanted one, yet she couldn't give him one. So he decide to find another woman, who could give him a baby.

But, he's not greedy. He waited for the right time to tell and ask for her permission to get married, one more time.

She cried.

And he said, relax. You don't have to tell me your answer today. Let's go relax somewhere, cool down and think about it. Think when you're sane.

So they go to a holiday trip. And comeback, they talk about it again.

This time, the wife said she's still not ready for it.
He said, its ok. If she didn't permit, he won't do it.
And life goes on.

Ok some part of it, aku menambah rasa, but the core part of it is all true.

Best kan jadi the wife, knowing that your husband really loves you.

But on the other hand, mesti sedih jugak, not being able to give what he wants most.

And i think unless someone could think as rational and as calm as both the above husband & wife, don't think of polygamy.

Although most of the man here in my office do talk like they'll walk it, none try it.
So those wife yang rasa2 your man is my officemate/workmate, worry no more. Hehe.

And hopefully, I shouldn't be too.. ;)

*images from google.

the verdict

I am :

This is my 2nd week at home, after we enjoyed our Sarawak-Brunei-Sabah journey.

(will of course blog about it later).

I've been bombarded with works, once I'm in the office.

Taklah banyaknya sangat, I know, but still being me, I'll be panicky, menggelupur and indecisive.

As if lah kerja aku tu super susah.

Besides all that, I still spare sometime to think of my next trip (sempatkan?)

This time, with kids.

Yelah, poor them. Asyik-asyik dicargo kesana-sini.

Kids, they're simple yet fragile.
Scold them everyday, they'll be chicken scared of u and do whatever u ask,

but long term, who knows what will the kids turn to.

Maybe someone who will be very very scared to try anything,

or maybe a person who can't decide for himself.

Ilhan Yasmin, compared to her younger siblings,  has to be handle delicately.

I have once spank her, for being lazy and lembik while doing her homework.

(and when i said its ok to rest for a while, dia boleh siap lompat2),

I spanked her so hard, I could feel it on my hand.

And i regret it until today.
The mark of my spanking is visible on her cheek, 2 days after that.

I am so teruk.

Budak tu baru je 6 tahun, homework adalah so not compulsory.

Plus she's been bored.

And looking back, my biggest mistake was, at that particular time, I'm also being influence by work headache and someone yg menyakitkan hati.

Pity her.

Anyway, she's been avoiding me for at least the whole week.
Even avoiding to talk to me in phone while I was in Miri.
And she's been super sensitive, raise your voice a bit, and she'll cry, air mata meluru-luru turun.

My last trip, was enjoyable, yet I can't take off my mind from being guilty.
Teruk rupanya to feel guilty to your own kid.
Kalau dia buat salah pun after that, ko akan rasa bersalah yg amat nak marah dia.

Which in turn, being my child, mestilah dia pandai tactical.
Inilah masa terbaik untuk buat2 pelbagai kesalahan seperti melompat-lompat atas katil aku dan mengganngu gugat keamanan adik adik.

So, moms out there.
Take me as youe bad example.
Never hurt your children.
There will always be a way, a much much better way to teach them rather than physical abuse or hurtful words.

And to break even with Ilhan,  we're planning to go somewhere near but needs the usage of passport,
hahah chewi kan?

So wish us luck. Rather, wish me luck, so i wont forget that Allah gave me children to be appreciated and loved.

**image are from Google.

Bye bye work

From google

Hoho, life has been hectic dan menggelupur.
And full of drama (sorry anak-anak ku..)

I'm going off to Miri this wednesday and leaving task that will start and ends the same duration as my trip is.
Menggelupur ok.

Am taking a deep breath, so handing over could be smooth, amen amen...

And, shooooossshh with orang2 yang tak habis-habis complaint. Orang nak cuti dah plan setahun pun complaint. Kan bagus tolong menolong ni.. :)