We never stop fighting the war!

Dajjal - he's coming. For sure.
Allah has said that he's coming, and Allah the Almighty, tru Quran has never failed us, there's no lie in Quran, nothing that we read in Quran did not happened. All of the works are true, nothing less.

I have a feeling that the end of the world is so near. Qiamat is another promise by Allah, and it will definitely happen. I'm not a scholar, but tru my limited reading, limited attendance of majlis ilmu, limited review of knowledge, I know that the signs are getting clearer - that Qiamat is coming, soon, very soon.

It's like pregnancy. You have to deliver, either healthily at full term, or miscarriage or abortion. You have to face a day when u the living inside your womb will be out.

And death too, no choice. We have to die. We were born, aged, and die.

Qiamat is certain. And so does Dajjal.

I read that when Dajjal came, the world will be in long drought. We will be needing water like hell, and the only one who cud provide is just Dajjal. Can we resist? We might say yes now, but have we tried 5 days without water?

If we are to live in the years of Dajjal, Can we resist him? Can we stay in iman?
I am doubting myself. And I am truly scared.

But see, the people in Gaza Strip, has been without water, or with limited water, food and electricity for years under the occupation. They survived. And at least, with full confident, they're not scared to die, for Him, as if they know what awaits them afterlife.

My logic says, the people of Gaza will survive Dajjal.

Gaza surely survive this Dajjal!
(image from the Haaretz Daily)

For all we know, Allah might be training those selected to face Dajjal, to survive the end of the world. The Syrian, the Iraqis, The Afghan, Palestinian, not forgetting those Chinese Muslims in the China, the Crimean people, even the Muslims of Thailand & Philippine under oppression.

Now,
are we not scared?

We lived happily, no blockage of supplies, no bombs to be scared of, nothing. We can walk freely to the beaches, plan trips after trips overseas, we are not ready. At least most of us. Or at least me.

We are at war.
Those in Palestine, Syria, Afghanistan, Crimea, Thailand and a lot more, are in war that brings them closer to Him.
We're in war, of social, of attitude, of comfort that drag us away from Him, that makes us forget, makes us absentminded, run-down people.

A simple video showing the AlQassam praying while in war, as if they do not hear the bombing. Compare those to me, laying down playing games while azan, and telling myself to finish off the game first, then we'll pray.

We are at war.
We are.

Let's fight them. Let's fight hard. Let's prepare.

#prayforgaza
#prayforsyria

Allahuakbar!

Gangsterism!

Its about time to stop producing gangsterism movies. Please production companies, producers, broaden your ideas.

Cerita gaduh amuk tak ketahuanhala ni, is too much. Semua org la ni pakat nak tunjuk hebat jadi abg long kawasan. Please, give it a rest.

Yg CDM25nya, yg hamuk hantuk kepala sendiri kat keretanya, yg curi kat hypermarket pastu marah org tangkap dia, yg gaduh tepi jalan la. All these, although might not be 100%, are influenced by movies, videos, whatever media they watched.

Okla, kalau tak pun la, kalau depa mmg lahir2 dah garang mcm tu pun, pls. I'm a mother. I want my kids to behave, patient, and having a calmdown built in kit inside them. Airing bini2ku gangster doesnt help in any sense.

Ok?

A sad day it is

Speechless when I saw flooded news in the social medias last night, on MH17 Amsterdam - KL.
At the same time ground attack by Israel to Gaza.

I hope our prayers in these last quarter of Ramadhan is accepted by Allah.
Ease our sadness, and help us open our mind, open the way to face these tests.
For You know the best.

Lets pray for Palestinians, and MH17

I feel bad about Palestin

But how can we help?

Cukup ke doa sahaja? Nanti kita ditanya tak, what have we contibute? Seram lah.

May Allah bless them, seriously, I dont know how the mainstream western news still said this was a defending attack by Israel. Thats a serious shitting statement.

I know some of our brave men went to Syria, any of them going for Ghaza?

Its a tough tough world for our brothers and sisters in Palestine, yet, we're in war too. A silent, more dangerous war. A war without blood. May He guide us, may He bless us all.

Esok sekolah!

Cuti lamanya terasa kali ni.
Kangah malas nak pi sekolah balik, buat-buat alasan beg tak jumpa. Kemon kangah, u can do better, beg is too big not to be found.

Ammar n ilhan, as always, relax je. Ilhan dan siap kemas beg 2 days before. Ammar, jap lagi kena check, he's funny. Hari isnin kadang2 silap susun buku hari rabu.

Sikecik minmin? He's been going to school everyday la. No cuti for him, so he cudnt care less.

So esok, bermula lah jalan depan rumah sesak seawal 7pagi. Oiuhh, i can imagine the queue. Tak sehebat KL, but boleh je buat aku sesi amuk pagi2. From roundabout seberang jaya, sampai Sg Dua.

And mulai esok, baju putih datang lagi.. haihhh, dah 2 minggu tak pandang baju putih. Kanak2 riang ni pun pakai baju putih dah mcm pi sawah padi, habeh hitam. Only Ilhan sekarang quite ok.

Bayangan baju putih, heretan ke bilik ayaq pagi2, suara2 jeritan suruh solat, makan etc, kehilangan socks atau singlet atau sepende, dah pukul 7 pagi baru teringat cikgu suruh bawak bawang dan kentang utk seni, oiiiy! I can imagine the chaos.

Good luck mummies ya! Haha

Batu Berangkai u ols

Kampung mak aku, Kampung Batu Berangkai, Kampar. Lokasi, belakang masjid daerah Kampar. Kalau hangpa urban sgt, memang tak kenai tempat ni.

Naik bukit sikit, kampung tu memang dikaki bukit. Sejuk, best.

La ni jarang dah balik kampung ni, yela Langkap pun jarang, lagila sini.

Best thing here, always - sungai.

Sejuk, masa aku kecik2 dulu, fuhhhh mandi pukul 12 tghari pun sejuk sungguh.

Tu baru kat kaki bukit. Kalau tere sikit, panjat bukit, ada waterfall. Fuhhhh mmg best!

Aku tak faham jugak kenapa tak diwar-warkan keajaiban (chehhh ajaib) waterfall ni sebagai tarikan pelancong, sbb memang koolness lah.  Tapi elok jugak, tak ramai manusia. Kami2 yg biasa pi saja tau.

Kalau nak pi, mcm aku cerita tadi, head to Kampar, masing2 ada GPS kan, cari masjid daerah kampar, mesti nampak Kampung Batu Berangkai punya signboard.

Good luck, kalau jumpa, mmg magical lah!

Alfatihah

Forgive me.

I write when I'm not in my normal happy mode.

My uncle pass away, just now. We called him Mamak Din. See, we come from a strong suku sakat Mandailing, and uncles on mothers sides are called mamak. His name was Abdullah bin Mohd Noor, but he was better known as Nordin. Hence the name, Mamak Din.

He was a good man. He is. My mom's eldest brother. A man who loved his family dearly, and a good friend of my father.

I cant sleep tonite. This again, is a reminder from Him, that death is certain, always is. Life and what we perceive as heaven on this earth, is temporary.

We human, at least most of us, need to be reminded over and over that this beautiful life we live is temporary. That we have an eternity world waiting for us, that death, means the end of this temporary life.

So we cud refrain, from hatred, anger, ungrateful and  wasting - time, food, energy, money. So we cud appreciate what has been written for us, as He knows best. And ultimately, so we understand that Allah, always knows best, always love us.

We will die. We all will, just a matter of time.

Are we ready to end this temporary life?

AlFatihah to Mamak Din, may he be bless by Allah.

Sudah terlewatkah?

1. I've been confused. The internet has been mean. See I cant always go to majlis ilmu, as Armin needs me, and so are his siblings. So, I seek the youtube of ustaz's ceramah.
But, recently lots of arguments about the validity of hadith read and explained by some ustaz. And it has made me confuse, to whom to refer?

2. But most ustaz haa agreed that a lot of sign has been revealed, telling us this is akhir zaman. And this is scary.

3. Am i ready? Orang offer makan free pun kadang2 bukak puasa sunat, can I survive the hunger and thirst in Dajjal times? Will we be there to witness the end of the world? Or our death is already calling?

4. I'm scared. But I know I'm weak. We're the generation of materials, and we're lack inside. We quarrel over political parties like small kids, calling people macai and ulama sesat, how cud we tell the strength of our heart and our mind?
We dont care about pregnant ladies Without seats in LRT, and we claimed to have big hearts?

5. Small things people, small things. While our frens are suffering from water lacking in Selangor, in Penang we waste them like its ours. And we're tough inside, is it?

I hope we're given His mercy, and we need a lot of them. Pray for us and definately our children.

I hope it is not too late.

Kaknam lagi didapur.

This time a failure epic.

Attempt to menggulai ikan masin dgn terung failed big time.

The look is good, rupanya org tak buat gulai ikan terubuk masin.

The correct ikan shud be ikan talang masin.

Haha, bedal je lah. Next time bersedialah ikan talang

Kaknam didapur

First time memproses ketam sendiri, kecoh!

This is ketam batu, brought alive from Sabah. Mati dlm peti ais.

Nak proses siap youtube, call mak, gelabah takut masih hidup, uiii mencabar sungguhhh

Nak masak kacang je.. garlic, onion, ginger and lemongrass kalau ada. Blend. Add red chillies or dried chillies. Stir fry, add in tamarind juice. Salt, sugar to taste. Kemudian masukkan mr crab kita.

The crab itself is so yummy, kuah cincai pun menjilat jari.

Hehe.

Dua dunia kita berbeda

1. Ammar is tan, obviously. Hitam legam actually.
While Armin is fairly fair. Not that fair, but the fairest among all four of them.

2. Ammar sempoi. He didnt like to dress up, sikat pun taknak. If we didnt force him to change whenever we are about to go to kenduri, Ammar will wear what u'll see as baju tidoq.
Armin shows some hint of mat smart. He loves to see himself in the mirror, and he smile while selfie-ing with me. He likes sunshade, and how he looks after putting it on. Too soon to judge maybe, but dulu2 Ammar tak mcm ni

3. Armin is a clingy baby. He cant lose sight on me. Nangeh mcm kena dera.
Ammar, when he's around that age, likes his freedom, lari, punggah mainan, punggah kain baju, kalau boleh nak pusing satu flat tu dulu.

Love them both, regardless

Tua dah ka?

I frequently feel ache on my back, shoulder and hip. Sekali sapu and mopping session seminggu sakit.

What la?

Makcik2 dah gaya.

Tapi, cover babe. If u ask if its tiring without maid; I'd say I'm ok.

Yelah, i do what i think i can handle. By 9pm, if i havent clean the dishes, and sweep the floor, maknanya I'll only clean the dishes. Sapu hari lain.

And i havent forget how tiring it was with maid. Body ache is forgiven, and will heal.

Makan jamu la jom. Dak pun shaklee ka apa ka. Kot2 makan mau kurus jugak kannnnnn

Keras tangan

We're not good in house decorating.
Cleaning and tidying up pun once a week, most of the time the kids and their frens will make this house their favourite indoor spot.

Say no more about rumah kemas.

But I'm happy with that.

Ada je times when we went to neighbors or frens houses, and we get inspired.

And these are the result recently, kids room. The boys and girls.

Lets see sampai bila bertahan ��

I love u, and i'm sorry I hurt you

Ammar has been naughty.
He yell, say naughty words, fights with everyone at home, even throw things.

I've accepted that he is naughty. And i have to deal with it.

Until my neighbor told me, when we left him for a while at her house; he's a good boy. He didnt even argue anything.

And another neighbor told me (we're in kenduri anyway), "i've a small chat with him, and he actually is a good boy".

And they concluded that Ammar, only acted tantrums when I'm around.

So, puzzled enough, I did some interrogation. But inconclusive

One day, as we're going to sleep, and i'm about to apply his daily feet cream (ammar sakit kaki), as always, he yelled at me, sakitttt!!! When I havent touch his foot yet.

As always, i'm struggling to put the cream on him, and he keep resisting, dgn tangan dgn kaki, dgn mulut. Haihhh.

In the middle of the struggling, Armin came in his room. Naturally I smiled at Armin.

Ammar then said, "that's why i hate you, ibu senyum kat Amin je, kat Ammar asyik masamm je"

Oh!

Hits me on my nose.

Aduhai anak, ibu lupa rupanya. Ammar has been observing me. He's been the youngest for 6 years. Tiba2 Armin datang and he is pushed away (at least thats what he thinks)

Ibu minta maaf Ammar, I love you so much, from the day we find out I'm having u inside.

Have u had the same experience? How do u handle them?

#pray4MH370

I never thought a lost flight could be such an emotional event.

My brother is going to Abu Dhabi for work, and he's quite a frequent flyer. But this particular time, Mak is going to the airport to send him off.

Mak's reason is just because takkan nak biar his wife drive all alone to send him.
Well, normally she did that :P
Annddd, her mom is in KL too temankan Reen.

So, I knew Mak is moved with the situation. Terkesan disitu. Although neither her voice nor her face shows that.
After 3 days without any sign, who doesnt freak a bit getting into a plane.

And, the bomoh.
Come on, we're able thinker. Rest our hope with Allah, and Allah alone.

May Allah guide us.
MH370, return home please.

**pic from Google

Pray4mh370

I do not know the latest update but may all the passengers and crews be safe.

But the He knows best.

The passengers list : http://www.malaysiaairlines.com/content/dam/mas/master/en/pdf/Malaysia%20Airlines%20Flight%20MH%20370%20Passenger%20Manifest.pdf

Hanez Suraya who?

Whats with her?

Ok she's the pretty lady with scandal dgn husband orang. And she looks guilty, from the internet side's of story.

But who is she? Seriously, penyanyi ka pelakon ka pengacara ka? Babe i havent seen u before.

Tiba-tiba penuh cerita in facebook. Everybody is so busy giving opinions and maki hamun. 

Calm down people, you people has made her so popular, maybe that's what she wants anyway. 

;)

the runaway money

I think my money just ran away.
Like at a blink of eyes.

And today is the first week of the month.
apakah?

Blame the price hike jom

a mother's pray

So It's true that there's always silver lining in every cloud.

As He said :

94:5 and 6 For verily after hardship comes ease. Verily after hardship comes ease

We've moved to our landed house end last year. And naturally, the kids school too.
I see this as unfortunate, as Ilhan Yasmin is not going to SJKC, we cudn't find a decent day care for her transit nearby SJKC. She's been doing quite well back then in SJKC, and has been able to converse quite fluently. So I'm frustated.

And this new school, after a bit of research, is said to be ok.

After almost a week of school, when Ilhan and Masyitah complaints daily that they've been bullied, I thought that's just them missing their old friends and school.

But,
When Masyitah quitely slipped a scissor from her school bag, I asked, what was that for? She said, her friend sitting next to her, is a boy and he forced her to be his girlfriend. Awek katanya. Masyitah gets angry (owh u know how kangah gets angry), and she said "kalau dia pegang tangan kangah lagi, kangah gunting tangan dia"

Then, it hits me. Isk, darjah 2 dah aweks bagai?

And being me, I march to the PK HEM. He's been great and told me that this is a school with a lots of issues. Most kids are left most of the time by their parents, even at night as mostly, they're factory workers, working shift hours. So, expect attitute issues, social issues and whatnots. Plus he said, as new students, both my kids are in the last class. The worst one.

This is the only school where I can get a proper transport and day care transit. Macam mana ni?

I pledge for the school to relook on the girl's band. If they're better than the last class, please up kan lah.

And what's the silver lining? We cant even transfered them to other school yet. I'm stuck.

After almost 2 months, at least, I see things differently. Every morning after they walk pass to school gate, I'll pray for them. Ya Allah, I'm their mother, aku redha dgn anak-anakku. Please do protect them, pls pls pls. Please do guide them, make their heart strong, and always towards you. Protect them from syaitan, for badness, protect them Ya Allah.

Things I seldom do before, I did every single day.

I used to take for granted their school work, since they've been taken care of in school, and kononnya it was a good school. But we do homework together every night now, or maybe not homework, just coloring or the exercise books. In fact we even put text book according to schedule together now.


So, there's always silver lining in every cloud. Hopefully.

Lagi lama!

It's been super long.
Bought a smart phone konon to ease the updating, haha.

Ok, it's 2014 and life has been different

Annnndddd there goes my update.
hilang dah idea.

;)