the day?

Yesterday was woman's day. Not until one of the FM radio channel aired a morning talk of Woman's day, that i realize today's the day. Frankly, i do not know how people celebrate it, worse, i do not know what it is all about. What is it about actually?

Googled it, and found out that officially, 8th March of every year is pronounce as International Woman's Day. Supposed to be a day to connect all woman in the world and inspiring them to achieve their full potential. Well, a long history to get a day pronounced as woman's day, as it started out around 1900 in NY, when woman first fight for their rights (or maybe, first time noticed by the world fighting for their rights, as i am sure woman earlier than 1900 should have fought their right as well, individually). Officially being discussed during International Socialist convention in Copenhagen back in 1910, where a date was proposed to honour woman's right movement. And the fight for woman's day did continues until 1975 when it was finalized by United Nations (after claiming years of supports for IWD, tru conferences) and pronounce the 8th March as IWD.

And what they do on this day? it is a day when women's achievement are celebrated, and events are held to inspire all XX chromosome human. Its an honour to have a day dedicated to woman, but does that help in anyway? I have a good feeling that this day is celebrated only by those who feel that woman's right is violated. I don't. Thus there's no need to celebrate it.

Clearly, this day is to remind us that there were days when women were treated different from man, and whichever organisation who supports this day wanted women to believe that those old bad days are gone. True enough, women are being treated differently, not just before 1900, until now. But is that bad?

Well, i did not do my research, but as i watch movies and even read in books and magazine the it is not all bad. We are treated differently, because we are different from man. We are created by Almighty Allah to be women. The beauty of the world. We are not men, created as tougher and given lots of responsibilities. Why fight for the differences, when we are different?

I love being a woman. And i notice that man and woman are not the same, and i love the differences. If IWD is just a day to fight for an equality of both sexes, then i am happy that i do not celebrate it. It would be better, if we can celebrate a day, for woman, to be a true woman, and to be treated not equally as man, but treated as a woman, the beauty of the earth.

No title

i have no title for today's entry.
i am absolutely frustated today.

i have tried hard to wake up early in the morning and clean the house before going to work, and it works for like 3-4 days. I felt tired the 5th day, and end up waking up late, even late for work.
That feels bad, and ruins my mood the whole day.

good thing is : the quran reciting is still my daily routine, never skipped it since the day i promise myself to recite quran everyday. It is calming actually, to even hold the quran. The very time that i felt peaceful.

On lighter note, i really do not know how to arrange/re-arrange my house, specifically the kitchen to make it looks neat and clean. The house is loaded with stuffs, and we are not willing to throw away any. To make it worse, we do not have a proper cabinet system, in which we can stuff all our things inside, and make it invisible, yet we know it is there.

Another disadvantage of no proper cabinet is : khairin and ilhan has full access of all stuff, including the canned food. Currently, we put all our things on rack (cheap racks), which most of it has no cover. The kids will take out everything on the rack, daily, and mess around with it.
And i have to re-arrange them back, after they're done with it.

but anyway, a proper cabinet system would cost us another few thousands, so i might as well forget about it.

friends

i have many of them, or shall i rephrase it : i used to have many of them, since i don't think i can recall more than 15 of my friend's phone number. And that is so not me.

I used to live in a house pack of 12 mates, and around the house were where all my other friends stay, we were neighbours, by walking distance.

Back during my secondary education time, i stayed in hostel, pack of girls and boys, and we're friends, close friends who recognize one's teethbrush and pail.

And i still can remember my younger times, during my years in hometown, friends are people i can not live without. They're my playmate, my tuition mate, and they occasionally will bring ration to school/sports training session to share.

Those are the times when i have no penny at all, except for some daily pocket money (usually 50cent per day) from my parents for the morning break or breakfast. And those are the times when my friends and i wore the same type of cloth, use the same type of book and bags, regardless of our parent's salary. And those are the time when we share our money for outings, or even for lepaking at kedai mamak.

No one bothers to draw a territory line between two friends.

my god i need friends !

All those are tests

We're being tested this month. With lots of thing to manage and think of. These are the few that i have to share, or else my head will explode.

But anyway, we're still very alive and normal. So, i guess, we manage our tests and pass it. And thank Allah for always be there and reminding us that we're His servant.

Demam campak
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Ilhan first got it.. 'demam campak' ! she's not happy about the rashes and itchiness, but she's ok, she can still enjoy her play time and sleep soundly except for the first night infection.

Then the virus infect khairin. At first, she seemed ok. Mild fever, 2 vomitting session and diarrhea, but her rashes were all small. And i took for granted. I went to KL for a workshop, leaving them with the babysitter, thinking that the infection would not be any severe.

Bad news on my arrival to penang. Khairin's back is horribly 'mengelupas'. Pity her, the rashes turned to 'kudis'. And sometimes, it bleeds. Alhamdulillah, she's a strong girl. She cries, but she did not 'merengek'. And lucky her for having Ilhan as sister, Ilhan played with her, so she can forget the pain.

That contributes to my 2 days urgent leave. And my 2 days of work will be loaded tomorrow...

The pregnancy pain
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I have never feel this pain during the first two pregnancy. All the 3 trimesters are ok, even though not comfortable. But this time around, the pain is unbearable. It is only my 4th month, but i feel difficult to walk. At first, i thought its the shoe, or maybe my fast walking pace, but shoes changed and i walked slowly now, i still find it difficult to lift my leg and walk straight without pain.

In addition to that, i also face sleeping problem. I find it hard to get a good sleeping position, let alone to have a good 6 hr sleep. I woke up at least 3 times every night, and laying down is painful.

The financial planning
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We haven't discuss it seriously yet. Maybe because hubby knows it is going to be a headache. But with the baby coming, we need to do the planning. We're still maid hunting, eventhough now there are other options, like the old babysitter is willing to take care all of them (which of course will cost us a lot more than hiring a maid, but at least we know our babysitter is an expert of babies and kids, and she would not run away), and sending ilhan to kindy.

Afterall, the cost would increase. But at least, with planning we'll see options, and ways to manage the increasing cost.

the very 1st year

this sunday would be Khairin's 1st birthday. We will most probably celebrate it in Kelantan. I don't mind the location, as long as it should be a memorable and happy day for Khairin.

For me, birthday is a day when u must celebrate joyfully. And it is not merely a blind celebration, it is a celebration to remind us how a year has past, yet we're still blessed by Allah. It is a day when one need to rewind what has been done in the past one year and what has been gained. A year older don't just mean a number plus one, it is an indication of experience we should gain and knowledge we should learn. It's not just a day to eat cake, it is a lot more.

So basically, when anyone implies that birthday is not worth celebrating, i would strongly be against that. How would you measure your years of life, when you don't stop to ponder on one good day ? And surely it is a big blessing from Allah, to give us a full one year of life !! Does that sound anything worth celebrating?

Hubby always ignore birthdays. His reason is always that he is not use to celebrate birthday. But this year, this time, I am going to make sure that he'll understand the need and the importance of celebrating Khairin's birthday. It's her first year, it is her year of learning to walk, to smile, to see the world in colors, to recognize me, hubby and kakak, to have 2 set of teeth, etc. The least we can do is to up hold our hand, and say thank you to Almighty Allah.

the mandarin orange

So it's mandarin oranges !! it taste sweet-sour-juicy.. i like it so much that i can eat the whole box of 32 oranges in 3 days.. (forget about the acidity whatsoever).

That just described my condition :

• sweet : of course, i always am. anyway pregnant ladies are the sweetest women on earth.
  
• sour : i'm in a financial crisis (that bad huh?) state. i don't know about others, but thinking about debts made me scared.
  
• juicy : don't know exactly how to create an analogy between juicy and my life, but the kids has always be my juice of life!

by the way, we've been thinking on hiring a maid to help us with the kids and housework. But with the upcoming baby, they'll be 3 of them, and we do not think maid can deal with that. Unless she's a pro. But getting a good maid depend on your luck some say. So, the decision is not finalize yet.

And we'll be going to hubby's kampung this weekend, and spending CNY there. Most probably, Kelantan would not celebrate CNY, but we'll still be getting mandarin orange there, or maybe siamese orange. Khairin Masyitah's birthday will be celebrated in Kelantan. I really hope this would be a celebration, it is her 1st birthday. It is important.

Will jot down on my humble request to celebrate her birthday joyfully, no matter where, later.

For now, maid hunting !!

Loads of headache

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Ache in the head, but unfeel physically. Due to my bad habit of delaying/postponing my works, I suffer a great 'logical' headache. Tones and tones of unfinished work are now loaded in front of me, (yet i still have got time to blog !?), i feel the need to just abandoned some of it.



Some said, do not avoid work, face it one by one. You'll know how good it feel to complete a long delayed work. I have now a log book of tasks i should do. I am not a big fan of manual records, but neither do i prefer the so-called automated records. Maybe i just hate recording. But the importance of records are undeniable. Especially when i need a checklist on what should i do next, whats important or urgent now, and better, with records i can track back my old tasks.



So, there goes. A good start i believe. The logbook was a simple reminder to what i shall do, what's still pending. When i met staff or my superior, at least i would not write everything inside my head like i used to do. I can feel the difference after a week of using it. I feel alert. Well, hope it continues, so i would not be a last minute person again.



Can't continue with this, since i have an important task to do. (see the impact ?)