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i have no title for today's entry.
i am absolutely frustated today.

i have tried hard to wake up early in the morning and clean the house before going to work, and it works for like 3-4 days. I felt tired the 5th day, and end up waking up late, even late for work.
That feels bad, and ruins my mood the whole day.

good thing is : the quran reciting is still my daily routine, never skipped it since the day i promise myself to recite quran everyday. It is calming actually, to even hold the quran. The very time that i felt peaceful.

On lighter note, i really do not know how to arrange/re-arrange my house, specifically the kitchen to make it looks neat and clean. The house is loaded with stuffs, and we are not willing to throw away any. To make it worse, we do not have a proper cabinet system, in which we can stuff all our things inside, and make it invisible, yet we know it is there.

Another disadvantage of no proper cabinet is : khairin and ilhan has full access of all stuff, including the canned food. Currently, we put all our things on rack (cheap racks), which most of it has no cover. The kids will take out everything on the rack, daily, and mess around with it.
And i have to re-arrange them back, after they're done with it.

but anyway, a proper cabinet system would cost us another few thousands, so i might as well forget about it.